cupid’s diary

Sitting in my bedroom, not knowing what to do,
So, I decided to write down all my feelings!

‘Cause when I’m with you, I never feel any pain,
All I have to do is see your smile and then I’m happy again.
I don’t see you every day, but that’s the way it’s gotta be.
Just knowing you are there is good enough for me.
You’ve helped me through the hardest times, without even a sigh.

Now…
If I place my heart in your hand will you keep it safe for me ?
Will you cherish, love and protect it and treat it compassionately ?

I trusted another with its keep, once a long time ago,
He mishandled it… dropped it and broke it…
I took it home and hide it away for awhile,
It was so damaged… nearly destroyed… very sensitive and fragile.

I was able to put it back together, but it has never been the same,
It’s still too fragile to trust to anyone, who plays an unfair game.
It’s way to delicate to be mistreated …
And until I met you, my friend …

I’m beginning to think it is possible, to expose it again to love,

So, are you able to keep my heart safe ? I know it’s a lot to ask,
Be honest, if you can’t promise at this time …you may not desire the task.
I’ll just keep hoping the time will come… all good things usually do.
I’ve learned to be patient, and I’ll recognize the moment…

So should I give my heart to you ???

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I still doubt my feelings my self mmm

a friend is someone who’ll always be there to laugh with, cry with, someone who cares, they make you smile when you are sad, and make you happy when you are mad

they’ll sit up with you all night on the phone just because you feel alone, they’ll really listen to what you have to say and tell you everything will be ‘okay’ and they’re happy just to sit with you and watch movies the whole night through

they’d give up everything they have for you, you know they’ll always greet you with open arms and keep you safe from any harm

they’ll do things that they hate to do just because it means a lot to you, they’ll stick with you until the very end.

Thank you for being such a special friend!

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t h a n k y o u
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can you fall in love with someone who you’ve never seen and feel the warm of that love ? Does anyone know what I mean and know what I am speaking of ? We have spent years, months and hours together and we seem to know what the other one will say. I feel as if I’ve known you but, still, how can I feel this way?. I have never heard your voice or even the feel of your touch, but with you, my heart had no choice ’cause I truely love you that much. I want to tell the world what I have found with you and yes, it is possible to love someone this way, and I know that what I feel is true, ’cause I think of you everyday. So, we may be a world apart but each day, that distance grows shorter, you are already here in my heart and our love has shown no border. People can say what they want but I don’t have to listen, I know what I have with you, as to where, they don’t and they really don’t know what they are missing.
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but then everything turns the opposite way…
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I wish I could say that getting over you was the last thing on my mind. My heart’s broken into a million pieces and some of the pieces I can’t find. I believed you when you said you loved me, I believed every word you ever said. Now I realize they were all lies and they’re the reason my heart has bled. I would’ve never believed it would be so hard to forget about you. I think of you during every conversation and every task I do. I want nothing more than to forget all the hurt and pain you put me through. Thinking of all your empty and broken promises leaves my heart feeling blue. Even though it doesn’t seem like it,
every day my heart gets a little stronger. And the time between the moments I think of you gets a little longer. Even though it’s getting easier, I never really knew, that getting over you would be the hardest thing I’d ever have to do.

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I’d like to write something in honor of my parents who has been a tight moral supporter to me. I am one of their privileged daughter to have such an incredible parents whom i can really proud of. Sure, there are flaws, faults, weaknesses and never-ending sermons, but inspite of these i came to respect them so much.

For my dad : I am not saying this because he’s my father but honestly, i have never seen a loving father as loving as my dad. He cares for me endlessly. Even today, I, a 28 yr. old daughter still gets an early morning kiss from him. It’s his routine to give me a kiss before he goes to work. I can tell this to the world without shame. One of the things i am so thankful of him was during my most “difficult time and decision” of my life that he came to rescue me.

For my mom : I think my mother is the luckiest wife in the whole world to have such a husband so loving and responsible! I see them getting old together and still manage to kiss everyday. Sure, there were ups and downs throughout their marriage, but as mom would say, “if it weren’t for love, things wouldn’t have worked out fine today”.

For me : Nobody is as lucky as i am to be their only daughter! I love you mom, dad, with you by my side i feel safe and secure. You will always be my first love and my knight in shining armor. You will constantly be my father and my mother and i’ll forever be your daughter

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I sometimes feel my heart will burst
from wanting you so much
I can’t explain in words of how
I long to feel your touch

There is no way I can convey
this emptiness inside

If I could merely hold you near
for just a little while
If I could simply talk with you
or only see you smile

To have you look into my eyes
and wait to hear you say
Something that would help me
to take this pain away

If I have to wait forever
I guess that’s what I’ll do
For me, it will be worth it
to finally be with you

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if love is worth of waiting for
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ada yang benci dirinya
ada yang butuh dirinya
ada yang berlutut mencintainya
ada pula yang kejam menyiksa dirinya

ini hidup wanita si kupu-kupu malam
bekerja bertaruh seluruh jiwa raga
bibir senyum kata halus merayu memanja kepada setiap mereka yang datang
dosakan yang dia kerjakan
sucikah mereka yang datang
kadang dia tersenyum dalam tangis
kadang dia menangis didalam senyuman

apa yang terjadi terjadilah
yang dia tahu Tuhan penyayang umatnya
yang dia tahu hanyalah menyambung nyawa

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peterpan
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I know you’re out there, …
I know that somewhere your heart
beats with every beat of mine.

Somewhere I know you take a breath
for every breath of mine.
Perhaps sometimes your tears fall
for every tear of mine,
and just perhaps your eyes shine
with a sheen not unlike mine.

Last night I gazed upon the stars
as I often do,
and wondered if the same starlight
was shining down on you.

I wondered if your heart needs mine
as much as mine needs you.
I wondered if you dream of me
just like I dream of you.

I not know how I find you
but one thing I know is true,
In this life or in another
somehow I’ll come to you.

With love forever…

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When you asked me why I love you, I dont know what to say
I love every part of you in every single way
But if you want specifics, I’ll try to meet your wish
And do my very, very best to make a simple list

I love you for your arms that hold me every night.
I love you for your kisses, sometimes strong and sometimes light.
I love you for your patience that never seems to end.
I love you for the fact that I can call you friend.
I love you for your lips that always seem to smile

When you look upon my face for just a little while.
I love you for your eyes that see deep within my soul.
I love you for your ability to always make me whole.
I love you for your honesty, I know you’ll never lie.
I love you for your passion, so much it makes me cry.
I love you for your quirkiness and the little jokes you tell.
I love this and a million other things as well.

You see how hard it is to narrow it all down.
There are far too many reasons, but one thing I have found…

I love you for your brains, but I love your body too
In short, I love every single things that has to do with you !

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